One Month

The last couple of days have been pretty hard. I wont lie. Britt is fighting though, and he's not giving up! He has had a few things come up that have scared us, but has been strong and gets through them, just like the boy we all know. As a family, we have just really had to be there for each other lately. I feel like we have hit that point, where it has just hit us. Hit us that, our sweet Britt is here. We just want him back. We want him to wake up. All of the little things that have been happening are scary, and when it isn't all going well, it's just so much harder. It's hard to be patient, and just trust it at times. 

Gosh I don't know. Sometimes I feel like I'm back to square one...that it's even harder to deal with this all, than it was the first couple of days we were here. I don't know why that is. The waiting game is tough. BUT I'M SO THANKFUL WE GET TO WAIT AROUND. So so thankful. It just gets tough to look at his little face, and for him to not look back. Or to talk to him and him not say anything back. It's just been too long since i've heard his cute laugh.

The other day i was laying in bed, i had just woken up, and i could hear my little brothers in the kitchen yelling about something...and i swear i heard Britt's voice. It was the weirdest thing. And for a minute i didn't even realize that it was weird, it just seemed and felt so normal. Then i remembered that he wasn't there in the kitchen, he was still laying in a hospital bed in the ICU hooked up to stuff, so fragile, and so frail. 

They have told us over and over and over again. This is going to be a long road. A marathon. It won't be easy, it will get harder as the days go on. They've told us we will have to be patient, time and time again. And we understand that, we do, and we are ready and so willing to go forth and do whatever it takes. But no matter what they tell you, nothing can be said or done that will truly prepare you for the journey that lies ahead. We have learned that it is such a day by day process. One day at a time. Can't look back, can't look ahead. We can only focus on the day at hand. One day at a time with our sweet boy. Every moment counts. And there are plenty of bad days....but so many good. Sometimes we get discouraged because we focus on the bad things and days, when we cant...because what is the point? What good does that do for us? 

They are thinking of moving Britt to another facility up north. At some point, they move TBI patients to out of the ICU and into and LTAC facility. What they are doing here in the ICU can be done in an LTAC, as well as much more physical therapy and things like that to get him waking up hopefully. An LTAC is a long term acute care facility. They specialize in the longer term care of patients and rehabilitation of serious injuries. Whereas the ICU is more short term care. They think he is stable enough to do this. Usually they like to move them once they are awake, but in Britt's case it's different. There are a few facilities that we are considering for him, but we want to make sure to choose the best possible one for his situation! Not gonna lie, I'm really sad that we have to leave this place, we all are!! The doctors, the nurses, the entire staff. Amazing. And we have become so close over the past month, they have become our little family. It was hard to leave our home the first time, and now that we have to leave our home we have made here in the ICU, it is going to be even harder! I can't even begin to thank all of the sweet nurses, physical therapists, doctors, techs, etc. for all that they have done for us, and how they have so kindly taken us under their wing. We LOVE all of them, and can't wait till Britt can come back and meet all of the people who helped him along the way. That is going to be a good day. Anyways, we know that moving him is the next step, and the best choice, for him, and his recovery! And we are excited to see where the next step will take him! 

I just want to thank all of you for following along with Britt and his journey. For the nonstop prayers and continuous thoughts. For the kind gestures and acts of selfless service that you show us every day. We are so lucky to be surrounded by such special people. Truly blessed. And now that we are having to move him up north, pretty far from our home here in St. George, we are going to need that help. And i promise we will gladly accept it. I don't know what this next step will mean for our family, our how it is all going to work out, with my parent working, and my brothers in school, but I know that it will...because we have great friends and family to help us out along the way!! So we will need you more than ever here pretty soon:) We love you. Keep believing in our Britt. Don't quit!!