Safe and Sound

Another day with our boy! How lucky are we? There isn't much that you don't already know, things are staying the same for the most part. But as long as we aren't going backwards, we are perfectly happy. His ICP is a little bit higher today, not too much, but a little bit. However, his heart rate has been pretty high today, so they have had to give him some medications to try and maintain a good number. At one point, we were sitting with him and his heart rate just shot up out of no where, REALLY high, like 140, and it was pretty scary. To be honest, I think my heart rate shot up to about 500. His lungs are still looking good and sounding good. Still not much of reaction from his eyes. They have taken the sedation off completely, at least for now, and they took away his pain medication and are now giving him something that is a much lower dose. They are slowly starting to ween him off of things, to see how his body reacts and deals with it on its own. He is stressing us out today, let's put it that way!! I'm going to start needing his medications more than him if he keeps this up;)

We continue to be visited my so many friends and family, and we are so very thankful.

I've been thinking a lot lately about where my brother is at. Clearly, he is here, laying in this hospital bed...but where is he really? And a lot of questions come to my mind. I mean, it's hard to know, I don't know if we really are able to know. You see all the movies about people who are in the hospital, and they're spirits are either running around watching everything go on, or they are having outer body experiences, so many scenarios. So i've asked myself the question, where is Britt right now? Is he just asleep inside his own body, is he watching us talk his ear off and massage his arms and legs constantly from his room, is he in the care of our Father in Heaven and Savior Jesus Christ? I've wondered, and I want to know so badly...and I think I do. Or at least have a pretty good idea. Last week, a couple days after this had happened, my dad was visited by a man from Beaver, who he had never met. This man had made the drive to come down and talk to my dad because he felt impressed that he was wondering and worrying about where his son was. This man had been in a similar accident when he was younger. He told my dad that when he was in a coma, he went to the most perfect place, most likely heaven, and that the savior was just holding him, and he had never felt so loved in his entire life. He said that it was so beautiful, and perfect, and he was so incredibly happy. He said that he wanted to stay, but the Lord told him that it wasn't his time yet, and he needed to go back so that he could raise his sons along with his wife, and see them go on their missions. He told my dad that he was so close to the veil that if he leaned back even a little bit, he would fall back into earth, and into his body. He said as he would lean he could already feel the terrible pain, that his body was experiencing from the trauma it was in, but he went back. He wanted my dad to know, that my brother was in a good place, and that he was probably in the presence of the Father, feeling that same love as he did long ago. After sharing that story with my dad, he headed back to Beaver. It meant so much to my dad that a stranger, would drive 3 hours to share that story with him, it was an answer to his prayers, and mine as well. We also were told by a friend, of a very spiritual experience that she had.  It's pretty personal so I wont go into much detail, but she had the impression that the veil was very thin, for my brother. And that the lord had him in his arms, and was holding him and protecting him, because it would have been unbearable for my brother to deal with the pain and trauma that his body was going through, he would not have been able to live if he had to deal with that and feel it all on his own. So he was being taken care of until his body was healed enough for him to return to it. How incredible is that? When i heard that story the spirit was so strong, i could not help but cry and feel overwhelmed with so much comfort and love. My prayers had been answered, I no longer had to worry about where my little brother was or if he was okay. I know he is right where he needs to be. And what better place to be? It is so cool for me to think that my little brother might be talking with the Savior right now, that he could be holding him tight this very second, that he is so safe...and so sound.